Monday, October 19, 2009

no air

Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

should be studying, but i am taking a break.
up
down
up
down
tis the cycle of emotional status
for me at least
never to the extreme
well, i shouldn't lie
blah
i just want to finish school
everything else is a distraction
albeit some are grand distractions
needed distractions
but never permanent distractions
granted, i desire a permanent distraction
like a fool
always changing but never learning from previous failed endeavors
perhaps I just fail at math
percentages and chance never make it through to my conscious understanding
i just
just
want "that"
no air
sadfaceee
i hate it
tired of it all

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

even if you found it "that", would you let yourself believe? let yourself be happy? know you deserve it? or would you hold back, convinced it isn't real, that it will never happen? don't make that mistake...

Anonymous3 said...

Deserve is a large word to use. Do any of us ever legitimately deserve anything good? But I still heartily agree with what you've just said.

Anonymous said...

Well no one deserves to suffer through life alone.
But I more so meant it in a self confidence sort of way than a right.