A higher power? I am starting to believe in such

I have missed posting my thoughts in a somewhat cryptic fashion. I just do not have the time, an abundance of potential writing topics and ideas continually proliferate my thoughts, the hands on the clock only run far too quickly. I do however find myself maturing each and everyday, in various areas of course, but the end result is an overall maturation. I preach change never occurs, and to some extant I do agree with such a statement. I find change occurs in a cyclic fashion, that is one can change, but one the maximal point of alterations occur, said person begins returning to a previous state. Several of the cyclic patterns can occur simultaneously and at varying degrees. For example, a person can be achieving optimal change in the area of theoretical understanding, while regressing to a state of lower social interaction. or, such changes can both be occurring toward a similar destination, but at different rates. i.e. A person's belief of self worth can be increasing at the same time as said person improves ability to communicate, with one achieving optimal outcomes more rapidly than the other. External factors of course act upon such changes and restrict growth from forever inclining, which of course would lead to severe cases of mania, resulting in some for of homicide on the person by an outside force ( a completely manic person being killed by a man with a short temper and low threshold for such actions).

Blah, when I am not falling asleep I shall amend and improve such thoughts, just one of a multitude of thoughts and concepts I possess. Others would include cancer being contagious, which is TRUE!!! Cancer is derived from the inability of the body's (host) immune system to eliminate multiplying cancer cells. Of course such a deficiency would be the direct result of the body attempting to create an anti-body to some sort of an infect, more specifically a virus. A virus attacks the host, the host automatically responds with a cascade effect eventually resulting with the production of anti-bodies. Through some fashion or mechanism (perhaps inadequate development of T and B cells in the thyroid due to birth defects) these anti-body cells can no longer distinguish self from not. Resulting in the inability to prevent rapid growth of infect cancer cell. Oh, and whenever in the past I have said that everyone has cancer, yes I was correct again. Everyone has cancer cells, but it is NK Cells (Natural Killing Cells) when monitor and restrict cancer cells from growing abnormally and abundantly, because we all need some bad elements to create balance and a state of homeostasis. Of course these cells are altered by anti-bodies and response mechanisms resulting in the high concentration of defenses in specified locations. Once again, once these mechanisms become impaired or deficient, they can no longer successfully prevent the abundant growth of cancer cells (that is in the case of cancer) (some cancer types that is). This is also similar to auto immune diseases, which cancer is now being closer related to.

Just a few of several, as I begin to think back on various accusations and proposals I made in previous conversations in life, I begin to analyze them for accuracy. I find such dealings fun. Then I fall asleep, that's how most nights go, of course that is when I am not mulling over some desired psychiatric experiment or hypothesis.

My time has become limited, so I am not exactly positive of when future posts shall occur. I do somewhat enjoy my silence. But the thoughts continually run through my head, surprisingly I do not receive the amount of joy from such trivial internet games as one would originally propose; however, such a statement does not mean I find them, comforting? yeah I guess such a word would be accurate. Substitution for such interaction will suffice. This is also why I enjoy silence, I never realized how easily I can sound like s creeper, not cool at all. The end result in my humiliation, so perhaps ceasing will occur. sleep now. wait i shall.

- Joshua Buchanan