Atrial-Fib W/ RVR HR 124

Busy day at work
Things are tending to stay that way
Good I guess
Still find myself hoping, but I put a stop to that as soon as possible
What A Bitch
That's all I have to say
I hate change
So I can't change anymore
That's all I've done since 10th grade
Life is meant to be live, and that is what I am doing
Forget the past, things never truly change
Got a text from Danielle the other day
Just wanted to tell me that she is madly in love
I am happy for her, but idk,
Probably could of done without that
But she cares in her own way, and I appreciate that
Prob will be at least another 2 weeks til I hear from her

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Atrial-Fib W/RVR HR 124
He prob won't be there when I report for work in the morning
He kept reaching up to the sky today
I helped Amanda out with him alot today
Death can be a wicked thing
I pray mine is swift and I am gone without the struggle


Softball game tomorrow
Not really looking forward to it
Haven't had someone there to watch me in a while
If I could be heartless, I'd say, "no, I don;t want you there"
Have I learned nothing?


out of sleeping pills so in for a long night
which is good because I tend to have dreams I hate
And now I can't sleep on the couch because I might sweat when I sleep and get the couch dirty
I tried, but still nothing, so why try? ya know?

off this entire weekend again
yay....