myocardial infarction

Studying Anatomy and Physiology for my lab exam monday afternoon
Exciting stuff...
I can't shake you
not matter how hard I try or what i put myself through
From what I hear you are a changed person...
I hope you enjoy it all
No i don't think I love you anymore
I don't see the point in why I should
I'd give anything to be able to go about my business unaffected
i really don't know exactly what we used to have
But I miss it, and I miss you
What do I want? I want something
anything
maybe i'm just werid and a loser who can't get a grip on life
I think i just believe people to easily
I was myself with you
Did what I could to make you happy and build you up
I hope you know how beautiful of a person you are
whether you believe it or not
I never treated you wrong either
Maybe i'm supposed to get through this on my own
All i do is pretend that i'm ok and getting along fine
When everyone goes home and all the parties are over and it's just me...
I know if i just leave it up to you then i'll never hear from you again
I guess that's what kills me the most
You haven't even thought about it in the past whatever
even though you read
That hurts caitlin



"Dude what are you doing to yourself"
"I don't know, anything man"
"Well what the fuck, does that really get it all out of your mind?"
".... no"
"well then why put yourself through this"
"i don't know, just help me man.."